Friday, December 5, 2008

Nine Months

It's been nine months today since I've lost my baby.

I could have grown a whole new baby in the time you've been gone. But I don't want another baby. I really wanted you. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you, or want you here with me. The hole in my heart is not healing, and I don't think it ever will.

I'm just learning to live with it.


6 comments:

Funsize said...

Awww, I am so sorry. 9 months is such a long time. I am so sorry you have to learn how to live without your baby girl.

Foreverloves said...

I am almost to that point myself - where I could have had another baby in time that my sons are gone. She was so lovely. God bless your darling angel :)

CLC said...

9 months was significant for me too. But then every month without our children is hard. I wish things were different.

The Fabulous Ms. Beth said...

my thoughts are with you..

Anonymous said...

Holli,

I know this is a hard time for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

=Connie Davis

Aunt Becky said...

*hugs*

I'm thinking of all of you.