Saturday, July 31, 2010
I bought it with the specific purpose of putting Brenna's memory box in it.
As I was buying it I didn't find it one bit odd that I was buying a safe for my dead baby's things.
This is not the life I envisioned for myself.
Friday, July 30, 2010
I submitted my story. You can find it here:
Thursday, July 29, 2010
As I was holding in, I did try to imagine what it would have been like if Brenna had been born alive. I couldn't. For the life of me I couldn't imagine it. It's like she just wasn't meant to be here.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Saturday we're getting around, ready to drop him off. We planned on leaving early to go eat lunch at one of our favorite restaurants. I go to print out the map from mapquest so we know where we are going. Oh, wait, what's this? I read the location of the camp wrong? It's actually in the UPPER PENINSULA of Michigan!?! Oh yes, my friends. The camp was almost 5 hours NORTH!
Here is a little visual for you. I thought we had to go to the red dot, but we actually had to go to the gray dot. How in the world did I make this mistake? I have no idea.
Would you believe we made it there just as they were wrapping up registration. We did.
This one is going down in the books at one of my dumbest mistakes ever.
(Oh, and he's taking the bus home! Now it all makes sense to me.)
Sunday, July 18, 2010
It was without a doubt, the best smelling flower I've ever smellled. (I was pretty disappointed that the USDA doesn't allow us to bring them home).
I decided to get a tattoo while I was there. I've been wanting another one, but I just couldn't decide what I wanted. As soon as I saw this flower I knew that is what I wanted.
I told the girl what I wanted, and she drew it up for me. It's three plumeria flowers. One for my son, and two for my grandsons. I was going to have her put thier initials in the leaf or petal, but I since grandson #2 isn't here yet I decided not to. His name could change at any moment. :)
Friday, July 16, 2010
There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of what my life would be like with her here. The grieving is over, but the mourning never ends.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Hawaii was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! I have heard people say that they fell in love with a town, and I never could relate. I totally can now. I am in love. I am very serious when I tell you that I would move there in a second. No hesitation. Not only was it beautiful, but the people were so friendly. It was the first time I ever went on vacation and didn't want to leave. Even now I feel sad that I'm not there, and I actually miss it.