Friday, June 13, 2008


Awhile back someone posted about their favorite memory of her baby, and I really loved that post. I've been thinking a lot lately. For a lot of reason's, I guess. Mostly, I've just been feeling sad. (Probably because Aunt Flo is on the way, and my hormones are out of control). Anyway, I've been thinking about my favorite memories while I was pregnant with Brenna. I thought I would share them with you.

  • When the doctor told us everything was OK with the baby (ha-ha!) we finally told my son. He's 11, and he got this look of shock on his face and yelled, "You two have been having sex!" Then he ran into his bedroom. When I followed him in there, he looked at me in disgust and said, "I hope you went to a hotel and didn't do it in this house!" I still laugh when I think about that.
  • Waking up the day after I found out I was pregnant, and remembering I was pregnant! It was an awsome feeling.
  • When I was about 12 weeks I went in for an u/s because I had a sub-crionic bleed. I was so afraid they were going to tell me the baby was dead I didn't want to look at the screen. But I did, and there she was, her little arms and legs kicking like crazy. It melted my heart, and that picture is burned into my memory. I will never forget that moment. That is when she became real to me.
  • When I called my mom to tell her that, after 10 years of infertility, I was pregnant (naturally). The sound of dead silence, and then "Are you serious?" was hysterical. I could tell by her voice she was so excited. Then her and my step-dad met for lunch, and that was all they could talk about. I loved how excited they were.
  • The first time I felt her move. And all the times I felt her move after that.
  • When I called my grandma on Christmas Day to tell her I couldn't finish my shopping. She wouldn't let me finish my sentence. Finally I said, "Well, it's because I'm pregnant". Dead silence. Then happy screaming. It was great.
  • When my grandson kissed my belly, and said, "Hi baby".
  • When we went out and she kicked along with the music all night long.
  • When I would talk to her, when no one was around. Just the two of us.
  • When I was taking a bath, and she was kicking so hard my husband could see my belly moving.

Those are my favorites. I wish there were more...


Breanna and Dave said...

those are such beautiful memories!

CLC said...

beautiful memories! i am glad you have them.

Shay said...

I found you through the Loss Directory, I hope you don't mind a stranger commenting. :)
Your list of memories of your daughter is beautiful and bittersweet. Thank you for sharing them.

tiger said...

I love it! Very creative!That's actually really cool.