Before I became a mom I was a rather unemotional person. I got very happy and laughed all the time, but I really didn't get very sad. Nothing made me cry. While I was pregnant with my son I remember tearing up while watching Oprah and wonder what was wrong with me.
When my son was born I teared up, which was basically like bawling my eyes out for me.
I remember when I realized I was changing: My son's first few days home from the hospital. I had taken a nap (hello exhaustion!). I awoke to discover the my husband had taken the baby for an hour or so. They returned home probably 15 minutes after I woke up, but I sat by the window and cried my eyes out. I was an emotional wreck. I thought I was going crazy.
It was like motherhood opened something up in me.
Tweleve years later, after I had Brenna, I find myself crying at commercials.
Losing her has opened up something else in my. It's a whole new emotional level that I've never experienced.
I started this blog in 2008 after the stillbirth of my daughter. Now it's not just about loss, but about life.
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Something I love about being Leila's mommy is that it has added a new layer to me. Maybe it's maturity, or experience, but I love that I'm now more complicated than I was before.
Not to keen that my baby had to die for that to happen, though. :)
Hugs, sister. Embrace who you are now! Because it's beautiful!
Something I love about being Leila's mommy is that it has added a new layer to me. Maybe it's maturity, or experience, but I love that I'm now more complicated than I was before.
Not to keen that my baby had to die for that to happen, though. :)
Hugs, sister. Embrace who you are now! Because it's beautiful!
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