Back in the early days after we lost Brenna I did something that I really shouldn't have done: I shopped. I bought things that we really couldn't afford. Several times a week I found myself shopping, and buying things that we didn't even need. This went on for a few months. I thought it was just something I was doing, but then I heard other moms saying they found themselves doing the same thing. It was like a temporary fix. A moment of happiness.
Yesterday I realized I haven't been shopping in several months. It's not because we can't afford it. It's because I don't feel the need to shop like I did when I was hurting.
Baby steps.
I started this blog in 2008 after the stillbirth of my daughter. Now it's not just about loss, but about life.
3 comments:
My dh did/does this. Thankfully he sees it and trie to reign it in. I was an eater...that's my vice. Eating and blogging!!
mmm I definitely did that. Retail therapy has always been a big problem with me. But like you, I've found that I've actually gone a long time without it recently...its all part of the journey isnt it?
I've never met you, and I dont even remember how I came accross you blog, but I read it all the time! This post really reminds me of my mom when my dad passed away... it must really be a grieving process for some people!
I'm glad you are doing better :]
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