Back in the early days after we lost Brenna I did something that I really shouldn't have done: I shopped. I bought things that we really couldn't afford. Several times a week I found myself shopping, and buying things that we didn't even need. This went on for a few months. I thought it was just something I was doing, but then I heard other moms saying they found themselves doing the same thing. It was like a temporary fix. A moment of happiness.
Yesterday I realized I haven't been shopping in several months. It's not because we can't afford it. It's because I don't feel the need to shop like I did when I was hurting.