OK, so I'm not big on numerology or horoscope or astrology or any of that stuff. But, for some reason the number 8 keeps popping up. Brenna's due date was 08/08/08. She was born on 03/05/08 (3+5=8). I don't know what that means, but don't you think it's kind of strange?
During my pregnancy, I did not sleep well at all. I woke up many times during the night, but every night, no matter what, I woke up at 4 am. Last night I woke up at 4 am and I thought to myself how strange it was that I hadn't woke up at 4 since I was pregnant. Then it hit me, Brenna died, and was born a little after 4 am. It was one of those moments that jolts you out of your sleep. I hadn't ever realized that before. I spoke before about "knowing". It's not like I knew she was going to die, but I just had a continual nagging feeling that something wasn't right. I'd been pregnant before, but I said time and again that this pregnancy wasn't the same as the first one. I was sick or slept 75% of the time. I was almost non-functional. Something just wasn't right. I couldn't put my finger on it. When I realized that I woke up every night at the same time she eventually died, it was kind of spooky. I don't know what it means, but it's a very strange coincidence.
I started this blog in 2008 after the stillbirth of my daughter. Now it's not just about loss, but about life.
2 comments:
I know exactly what you mean. I wrote this a couple of months ago
"I realized the other day that Caden was born at 37 weeks weighing 3lb 7oz and 37cm long
I was returning our baby books to the library on Sunday and read in the astrological baby name book that the numbers associated with Pisces babies are 3 and 7.
Then I was booking the hall for his memorial service. I was going to have it on the 29th (sat) but then thought Sunday would be okay too. So I ring up and book. Was going to say 2pm like the baby shower was supposed to be but changed my mind last second and said 3pm.
Then I worked out that that means the memorial is on the 30th of the 3rd month at 3pm. Freaky huh?"
So yes, the numbers 3 and 7 hold lots of meaning for me :0)
Maybe those are signs from her and her letting you know that she is there with you.
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