Did anyone catch ER last night? I watched it, and let me tell you it really struck a cord. One person was reliving the death of her young child. At the end she said something that I think all deadbabymamas have seen written, but have never heard on tv. "A child who looses a parent is called an orphan. A wife who looses a husband is called a widow. But there isn't anything to descibe a parent who's lost a child". As soon as she said that tears streamed down my face. The whole time I was watching the show it really just struck a cord with me, but that moment just brought out all the emotions I tend to keep inside. Heartbreaking. Just heartbreaking.
I remember many years ago (13 actually). My husband and I had just started dating. His ex-wife (the mother of his daughter) had recently died. We were watching ER, and the storyline involved a young mother who died leaving behind a baby daughter. The father talked to the mother, even though she was brain dead, and told her how beautiful their baby was and how he was going to do his best to be the best dad he could for their little girl. I remember looking at my future husband and he was sobbing. Tears were streaming down his face and he was sobbing. I remember thinking that it must have been painful to watch something on tv that so closely relates to your life.
I had no idea.
I started this blog in 2008 after the stillbirth of my daughter. Now it's not just about loss, but about life.
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I think I would have cried as well.
I don't watch ER anymore, but I think I would have been in tears, too.
I bawled my eyes out..
YES! I promptly got up and went "pee". I could tell that that saying was coming up. When I got back in the living room DH was sniffling a tad and blamed it on his cold. I was going to write a post last night that said "I hate ER! ... period. That's all." I guess that's what makes it such a good show but I guess it's just our new normal to be faced with that even when we're just chilling out, watching TV. *sigh* I'm glad I'm not the only one that felt heart-smacked by it.
Didn't see it, but sounds like the whole blogoverse who did bawled. I want to see it now. Kind of sick knowing that it will make me cry, right?
There's an old episode of ER where Carter is dating a woman who's pregnant with his baby. I think they get engaged, and then the baby is stillborn. I remember crying and crying when the baby was born, thinking about how hard that must be. I had no idea I would go through that myself!! For some weird reason, I keep thinking about that episode and I want to go back and watch it.
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