ook Brenna's picture off this site a few months ago because I had read on other blog how people were stealing their pictures. I didn't want anyone to do something with her picture.
But I realize that some of the people who are new to this blog probably don't know what she looks like. So here she is:
I think some people are shocked that a 19 week 5 day fetus actually looks like a baby. I've had other mother's ask me why she looks so good. They tell me that when their baby was delivered they were very red and almost bloody looking. The truth is, I don't know. She looked like a baby. There was nothing bloody or red about her. I think I remember the nurse telling me they did something to her when she was born to stop her from deteriorating. I'm not going to think about that. I know that after she was born pathology had her for a few hours to determine if there was anything wrong with her or the placenta (they found nothing). They are the ones who determined her gestational age, because at the time I found out I was pregnant I didn't know when my last period was so we were a little off on her due date.
This is the picture the nurse took. I have a few that I took, and I treasure them.
The only regret I have is that we buried her with these clothes on. I wish I would have kept them. I really wanted them, but I didn't want to bury her naked. Now I wish I would have at least kept her hat...
Anyway, if you ever come to my house this picture is on display in my living room. My mom has it on display in her house, as does my grandmother. Some people would be disturbed by that, but those are the people who've never been touched by stillbirth.