Monday, August 12, 2013


It's been so long since I've written here I literally forgot how to post something on blogger.

This used to be my safe place. Where I went to vent my frustrations to the world. This is how I kept myself sane; how I bounced back and became normal again. I feel like this is a sacred space, and in a way writing right now feels like visiting an old friend.

Truth be told I had to step away from blogging for awhile. I had to step away from the entire baby loss community because it's so easy to get caught up in it that sometimes it's hard to get out of it. I'm not sure if that makes sense, but that's how it was for me.

Sometimes instead of kind words and affirmations we need to hear that we are being ridiculous or overly sensitive and someone needs to tell us we need to put our big girl panties on. You don't hear that much in the baby loss community. Maybe we should.

I'm keeping this blog up here for all of you who have suffered a loss and found your way here. (I promise you it does get easier.) I plan on still blogging, so if you are interested shoot me an email and I will send you a link . (It's going to be anonymous, so I don't want to post a link here since too many people who know me "in real life" have this link!)

I've come here for the past five years. This has been my space. I feel like I'm saying goodbye to an old friend, who I will never see again. Just typing here is taking me back to five years ago, and that's not a good place to be, so I know it's time for me to move on.

So thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I would not be where I am today without this space to come to. I am eternally grateful.

To my Brenna girl, my life has never been the same since the day you left me. Kiss Big Grandma and Papa for me. I'm so happy you have each other up there.

1 comment:

Food Loving Mama said...

Wow i just read your about section, and how touching it was, we had a miscarridge last year, baby was due dec 4 and that was devastating, even though we were only 7 weeks in that was still my little baby, so i cannot even imagine how terrible your experience has been, i just know God Got us through, ill be following you journey, please feel free to join me on mine :-)
God Bless you