POST #302

This is my 302nd post. I didn't realize when I posted #300! :(

So, we had to find a new home for Gizzy. I really liked him, and wanted to keep him, but he had major issues. More than I was able to handle. I didn't feel comfortable letting him be with my son anymore, and that is when it became obvious that he needed a new home. He just wasn't loving it here. He has major dominance issues, and needed to be the only pet in a child free home. We found the perfect home for him. A disabled man who lives with his adult son. His son travels and the man is often alone. He's been looking for a dog for awhile. I just happened to run across him, and he already emailed me and told me that he thinks Gizzy is going to work out just fine. I was up front about his issues and the man wasn't bothered by them. So, I'm hoping that it will work out for him.

Now, the search begins again for another dog.

PETROGLYPHS

On Saturday we went to see Michigan's only Petroglyphs. What are they, you ask. They are ancient carvings that are about 800 years old. With the state of Michigan's economy, we can't afford to keep them open, so they are only open one day a year now. It was the first time I have seen them, and they were amazing.

You could get right up to them. You could actually touch the rock. I kept looking at these carvings, these mysteries, and wondering what they meant. Did the person (or people) who carved these so many lifetimes ago know that someday people would be in awe of them?

Which got me thinking about this blog.

Years from now, I hope that people look at it and wonder what in the hell I mean by Still Birth. I really hope that there is no such thing as Deadbabyland. I hope that these writings are a mystery to them- something they can't comprehend.

DEAR JJ

I wish that I could have a dad like my husband. He is a loving, gentle, and patient father. I hope my kids know how lucky they are to have him. I certainly know how lucky I am to have him.

I remember when I first realized what kind of father he was. We had just started dating, and we were roller blading with his daughter. She was 9 at the time. She fell pretty hard and hurt herself. I can still remember her cry of "Daddy!" He picked her up and carried her to a bench. He was so gentle with her. I remember actually being a little envious, because I had never had that.

Last week we were working outside and I cut myself. It was a long way back to the house and I was bleeding pretty good. My husband offered his tee shirt to help stop the blood on the way to the house. He took my arm and I expected him to put pressure on it. Instead he tenderly cleaned around the area, and then gently put pressure on it.

It's little things like these that make me realize what kind of a man I am married to.




This Father's Day all I can think of to say to him is:





Thank you for my babies.

I HAVE A NEW BABY!

Anyone who has lost a child will tell you- our pets become our "children". Well, I have a new baby. He's a rescue and we picked him up yesterday:





He's a Shih Tzu. His name was Gizmo, but we changed it to Gizzy (because we are oh-so-creative!). My husband calls him and my other Shih Tzu, Daisy "book ends".

They aren't identical- Daisy is 11 years old, and Gizzy is only 2- but they do look a lot alike. They love each other. Started playing right away. Originally we were just going to keep him until he found a new home, but we really like him. He just fit right in with us. My son says he has a familiar face- like we've known him before.

Must have been meant to be.

NOT ME

Not Me Monday Tuesday.

I did not feel guilty for working late, and let my son stay up late last night.

I did not pay for it this morning when he wouldn't get up.

I am not tired of writing about my dog rolling in poop because she did not do it again yesterday.
(Seriously, I have no idea why she is doing this and if anyone had a suggestion as to how to stop this I would love to hear it.)

I did not eat Spaghetti-o's With Meatballs for dinner last night.

I defiantly did not pick out the meatballs and feed them to the dog.

I certainly didn't buy my whole family (including the dogs!) matching 4th of July shirts from Old Navy. That would be very nerdy. Even for me.

SHOCKING

I don't want to share specifics because it's not my story to tell, but something scarred the shit out of me today. Someone suffered her second uterine rupture and lost her second child this weekend. It really freaks me out. I can't even imagine it happening twice! I really just can't imagine. That is my worst nightmare.

NOW I HAVE AN OPINON

The April Rose saga continues. I don't know whether I should pity Beccah Rose Beushausen or be angry at her.

I can't help but feel very sorry for her because she is obviously deeply disturbed.

On the other hand I am sickened that she has received all this attention! She was featured in the Chicago Tribune and ABC News for crying out loud! http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/local/chi-baby-hoax-12jun12,0,5601624.story?page=1

http://abcnews.go.com/Technology/Story?id=7827909&page=1

When I read that this had happened I posted about it because it was kind of shocking that someone could carry on this type of lie for so long. I did not realize the extent of her lie. I did not realize that she actually reported the birth- and death- of her "daughter". Just typing those words makes me sick to my stomach. She preyed on all of us who have lost a child, who are so willing to reach out and help another mother who is facing the same crisis. I fear that our community has become jaded. I fear that when there is a new mother in need, we will be hesitant to come to their rescue.

This is the blog world. We can be who ever we want to be when we sit at our keyboard. We alone choose what we do and don't share. We shape the perception that our readers have of us. Maybe I'm fooling myself, but I like to think that the majority of the things I read in deadbabyland are true.

For the record, I will tell you that I don't believe for one second that Beccah started this hoax to raise awareness to the pro life movement. There is no way. She went out of her way to contact MckMamma at mycharmingkids and ask her to direct traffic to her blog. She accepted money from several people that I know of. The only reason I can see why someone would do this, is because they are benefiting financially from it. Even if she was making two cents a hit on her blog- with all the hits her blog had that would be more the $15,000!

I would also like to point out that I believe she was the only person involved in this scam. The Pass Pregnancy Care Center had no idea she was asking for donation on their behalf. http://www.southtownstar.com/news/1620755,061309hoaxerside.article

I'm done talking about this now. I've been thinking about it for the past few days, and I just felt that I needed to clear the air before I moved on.

***Edited to add***
I just saw this on Blogher and it looks like Beccah won't be getting any money from them.
http://www.blogher.com/sad-truth-story-little-one-april